I don’t usually post personal shit, especially depressing crap, but for some reason nothing feels right, and I can’t pin-point what feels wrong, but I certainly can’t think of anything that feels right. I’ve been finding myself doing things that I wouldn’t usually do, things that aren’t me. I think I’m just a bit sick of nothing going my way, I keep telling myself that my hard work will pay off but it never does, I just feel I can’t do anything right and I’m pushing away the only person who cares about how I actually feel. People are leaving me behind, and I’m losing people who I didn’t think I would. 
What makes me feel worse is that all my stupid actions are hurting the person who means the most, the only person that cares and the only person who is genuinely here for me. 
I really do want this to stop, to just blow away, but I don’t know how it will, I don’t know what needs to happen, but I’m sick of feeling like this and nothing going my way.